Role Play: A Different Switch

For our class, Academic Writing, for our assignment we had to have role play. And as public relations students we have to act a scene which involves public relations. Therefore my group which consisted of Jared, Jason, Wai Sum, Sneha, Su Ann and me thought of doing a true story which happened in the past.


Marie Antoinette was the daughter of France and she was one of the most beautiful girl among the other daughters. She was so obsess about herself that what is happening to the country does not concern her but what to wear and what matches her nails grabs her attention. She treats her maids and ministers horribly. One day when famine hit the country and the villagers were out of bread and were protesting at the castle’s gate the minister went to Marie Antoinette to tell her about the problem and with a petulant flick of her hair she told the minister to ask them to eat cake. This shocked the minister and angered the villagers. They manage to brake into the castle and capture her. They sentence her to have her head copped off.


Well this would be different if we had a public relations officer who would advise the princess on what is best. A public relations officer will know his audience and what they want. Understand whats best for them and using the best way to overcome the situation. The minister would then advise Marie Antoinette that by making that comment is an insult to the villagers for they do not have bread what more cake. How does she expect them to eat cake when even bread they do not have. Instead she should find out how much they have in the vault and bring out some more to give the villagers so they would have food to eat.


Hehe so that was our role play. Hope our lecturer likes it! Jared was sporting enough to be Marie Antoinette to give our act a little twist! It was hell of fun giving Jared a make up! Thanks for being so sporting yea and we all know you look better as a guy dun worry!!!

Jared as Marie Antoinette















Our Pr Team, a minister, a maid,
a beggar, Marie Antoinette and our
PR person

A Change of Environment

I finally got out of my lazy ass and actually find and apartment to move in for Ridzuan is just killing us trying to squeeze us of ever penny we had. I finally decided to move to Mentari Court with Charles and Sneha and we are renting our apartment for RM650 only but not furnished. I took the middle room and is only paying RM150 a month so there im saving my parents a lot of money.

It was fun to go wild in Carefour and take everything we need for the house. I love shopping for my room and I fell in love with my cupboard!! It is so big with 3 doors! Then I got myself a table and those three tier cupboards, a mattress, a chair and other stuff. It was hell moving the things to the apartment knowing the amount of things I have back in Ridzuan. I had to make a few trips and gosh moving Chales’s sofa was bad enough. We were lucky to have my dad, Charles, Jared, Izham and Danial (a bit) and definitely not forgetting Leon who helped a lot driving his car to and fro. Thanks dear!! Muaks!!!

Fixing things together was also so fun. Had to build the cupboard and the shelves and seeing Charles being crazy doing his stupid moves. Lol… Now im finally settled in. I actually officially moved in on the 9th of September 2006 when I am suppose to shift in during the 1st already. Gosh I will be missing Ridzuan. Truthfully it is much better there, it is much bigger, it is furnished, and there are more food there which opens till late, a nice pool to hang out around and the place is safe coz its filled with students but in Mentari though I get the freedom and space coz in Ridzuan there are many rules, can’t bring guys in, can’t stay out till 12, no visitors, no cooking, no pork bla bla, and I have to share my room but in Mentari I got my own room and space and privacy but Mentari has yet to be fully occupied and there aren’t much food stalls yet and they close early and mainly Malay food. Plus the place is not that safe coz it is a low cost apartment that’s why we have to practice safety precautions.

Oh well nothing’s perfect can’t get whatever we want plus Mentari is good. The best part about it is that Mentari is just next to my college. If classes are at 8 I can leave my place at 7.55 and still be on time! Hehe so no waking up early for me!! And no more cabs!!! Thank god!!!
Ciao!





Our kitchen!!












My new bedroom!!












Jared helping Sneha with her

new cupboard












Charles and Leon working on

my shelves














Our own house-warming

Haha tequila popping!
Charles was WASTED!!

Cultural Aficionado

Now this is yet another event coming up to Merdeka. It is actually Nadeem’s final project where they are trying to spread culture awareness and exchange our culture together with the Cambodian culture. This is affiliated with the Visit Malaysia 2007 and this is working together with the Minister of Culture. This event was held on the 25 and 26 of August at Taylors Main Campus at the Multipurpose Hall. Nadeem and his dance group including me and Sneha were going to perform four songs two for 25th and two for 26th.

On the 25th was not the main launch of the event it was on the 26th but it was open to all too and the crowd was not too bad. We performed Asmara Dana the theme song from Puteri Gunung Ledang and Gemini Gemini. I did not really enjoy myself there for I was dead tired because after a whole day of college and having meetings for my event then I had to rush of for this dance.

But it was totally different for the 26th for there were more people and the people were all very supportive! They were yelling and cheering. We performed Nache Balaye and a fushion song which comprises of 6 songs which lasted for 12 minutes plus. It was darn tiring but worth it because the crowd were yelling encore encore!!! I was smiling till my ears and everywhere we went we had people coming up to us saying it was a great dance, good dancer! I was so proud! Besides our dance ( how selfish of me) both nights there were all types of performances, from hip hop break dancers, to singers, to instrumentals, to Malay dancers, to Chinese peacock dancers and little children dancing Indian dance at the age of only 5. They were so adorable. Oh btw something different from the norm is Radlyn’s cabaret group. There were singing and hot girls in short skirts and leggings with long sticks! Really hot! They sang “hey big spender”, and “Tainted Love” . The singers were Radlyn, Dice and Sara and the others were the dancers and I have to give then a big hand for doing something different and doing it so well!! Bravo!!!!
That event ended as a success too though all the stress and fights it was well paid off. As usual we went to Asia Café to eat then went back and hit the sack. What a night!

The Multi Purpose Hall in Taylors Main Campus














Me and Dice at Asia Cafe. Love that gurl!

Fiesta Merdeka

In conjunction with the upcoming Merdeka, the semester 5 of Public Relations students decided to host a small event to collect enough funds for our big event. This is just one of the three events we were planning to have and as for our major event this would be a concert cum buka puasa event at Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre ( place not confirmed) in the month of October and this event is to raise money for Riding for the Disable association. This association helps the disabled in a different way where their method of healing is by letting the disable ride horses. No it is not impossible to let a disabled ride a horse plus this would help them gain confidence, trust, and happiness for they get to interacted with trainers/volunteers plus the horses to trusting them. It is a very good therapeutic way and it is proven that it helps. But this association needs help in funds and also volunteers and that is what we are trying to do, gather funds and create awareness for RDA ( Riding for the Disable).

So our first event is called Fiesta Merdeka in conjunction of our country’s 49th Merdeka. On that day, there were mainly different types of Kuihs sold, kuih lapis, kuih talam, kuih ubi, keropok lekor, to name a few, fried mee hoon, banana cake, sponge cake and drinks such as ribena, orange, and cincau. There were also a face and body painting booth where people can get their body parts painted with the colors of the Malaysian flag with different designs either hibiscus flower, the Malaysian flag or the Word Malaysia. There was also a booth where we sold beaded pins in a form of Malaysian flag. This was a very creative idea from one of our members. And last but not least our Awareness Booth which I was handling. We were there to give out information and help spread the awareness of this association. Our event started out at 8 and ended about 12pm with a success. Everything was sold and the people were happy. All in all, even though small accidents happened but the event was a success and we managed to collect about RM2500 in estimation.

Now to our next small event and till our big final event! Hopefully it will be a success and till then ciao!

Our Fiesta Merdeka Flag

Selling various types of "kuihs"


The body painting booth



Our project manager got his face painted


Beautiful Hibiscus on the neck


The RDA Booth of course. We were
standing thats why it's empty!!
The Malaysian Flag in beads and pins

Performance @ Plaza Warisan

Well as usual our choreographer Nadeem told us that we had a dance offer at Plaza Warisan ( do not ask me where it is ) in association of Merdeka. We were going to represent the Indian dance ( as usual). Oh and we were offered to be paid RM100 per person. This event was on a Sunday.

So not knowing where the place is or how is it going to be like only knowing that it is a shopping mall we got a little bit excited for it would be a big crowd rite? I mean it is a shopping mall!! We took the KTM there not wanting to trouble anyone and ended up and the place. Lo and Behold we were so shock to find out that the place was pathetic!!! Uh-hmm I’m sorry but it is!! The stage was Horrible!!!! It looks like a stage from a scary kiddy film. So colorful and so small and we were at the edge of it. If I were to suddenly become very excited and hop around and just so happen to hop over this freakin small picket fence I would have jump to my death to the ground floor! Yay!! And do not get me started with the crowd!! It was sooo sad…There were so few people!

Anyhow, we went to our dressing room which btw was an Akido classroom, to change and get our makeup ready and waited. Meals were provided and we got satay, kuihs, nasi minyak ( I think) , pulut, fried popiah, and syrup drink. Can’t complain. So we waited some more till our turn is up. We performed two songs, one a Tamil song Serichi Serichi and the other a Hindi song Nache Balaye. The great thing for the event was that we were the crowd puller. There were other performances too such as Nasyid and some Malay traditional dances which were performed by little kids ( they were so adorable in their outfits) but the crowd ( what’s left of the people there) all came up to see our dance when we started! Hehe so after the dance we packed up and went to McD to chill. The day was sooo hot and sunny a cold drink was sooo tempting!

After that we went to Brandon’s house to chill, eat and play the ps whereas Nadeem started to watch his type of “porn” hehe… Was disgusting!!! Not the porn itself but that particular scene. You would not want me to relate to you coz the thought of it just makes you want to puke! At the end of the day, I was dead tired and decided to hit the sack. Well that’s about all for that day. Ciao!




The Stage!












One of the Serichi moves

Check out the pose











Ending pose














Me just being a camwhore

A Thousand Apologies: Modern Technology Deprived

The reason to my disappearance and the lack of blog entries is no not due to the dryness of my brain cells but due to the fact that I DO NOT HAVE AN INTERNET CONNECTION!!! Yes yes a college student without an internet access! Some might ask, why not use the one at college….Well let me enlighten you why, firstly, ASK THE ICT department! They think blogging is some sort of pornography or some sort of foul language center that’s why the site is block as pornography! Therefore I can’t even visit the sites! Haih…Then finally they had they brain to unblock it so yay! I can finally blog in college…but but dun be too happy, the system is sooooo slow!!!! Loading the site takes like hours what more uploading pictures or the post itself, so I totally gave up trying to blog in college. So this leaves me with cyber café? How many times can I go to the cyber café every time I have an inspiration to write? That will cost me a bomb!

So to my dear readers, I’m so sorry for the lack of blog entries but, ring the gong good news!! I am getting an internet connection at my new place ( I shifted btw to Mentari Court no longer at Ridzuan) therefore I can blog whenever and whatever I want to at whatever time! Yay!

Anyway after this blog entry, the coming few blogs are not based on the stated time but happened a long time back, back when I had no Internet to update you guys about. Anyhow those will be the few events, or happenings in my life. Enjoy or just pass out with boring…It’s your call =P

Addictive??

Since ages ago whenever i hear the words Dota, Counter Strike, Starcraft and so on I would give a sigh and go GUYS!!! They would pay so much and have their butts stuck to the com chair for hours just to play online games.. People spend hours just gaming and i thought to myself what's the fun in that? Well i was wrong. Only lately, me and my friends went to the new Asia.Net cyber place which is very new,clean and nice to, try out Counter Strike just for the fun of it. My friend taught me how to play the game and yes laugh all you want I obviously sucked at first! According to Leon ( whom proudly annouces the story to any willing ear) the fact that by the time i buy the guns and ammo, he would be standing behind me with a knife stabbing me, or just waiting till i walked few steps then he will shoot me...Joy!! But i have to say it is addictive! Was hooked on it for awhile.

Then i moved on to Serious Sam! lol...Who would believe that.. Me!! Playing Serious Sam! But this game is like darn long.. takes hours to finish and if you leave you can't continue from where you stop so its all over again for you! Anyhow the latest unbelieveble game which got most people hooked to it is believe it or not, none other then O2 Jam!!! Oh my gosh!!! I can't believe it became a serious game! I remembered i was doing my assignment then i realised my apartment mate was playing a game and it looked interesting therefore i asked about it and found out that it was O2Jam. I transfered the game into my com and played only when im too stressed from assignments. More like a breather.

So as you can expect, I was at the cyber and my friends started playing it! At the cyber!!! and i looked around me and there were guys all around me playing that game too! I thought it was just a no brainer game that you play during you pass time to relax but NO! i found out that people do compete to upgrade their levels where they will get money to buy and design their character!!! WTH!!! lol...People are being more and more creative nowadays... Its so silly but now im hooked on it...So hooked till we would actually purposely go out our way to the cyber just to play O2Jam...Not Dota, Not CS but O2jam!! hahaha... and to Pay money for it too!!! What happened to assignments? ( what assignments =P ) I would give this change of interest one big laugh!!! LOL!! Damn funny le... You should try it...

Chocolate High!!

About last Saturday, I decided to call Tony out for lunch to catch up on old times. When he agreed and everything was planned he fetched me and told me he decided to go to Swensens for lunch! Not for the food but for ice-cream!! Ice-cream for lunch?!! I was never lucky enough to have that for lunch in my childhood. Parents would go on ranting about how it is not good for health, too much sugar is bad plus it does not have a blanced diet! Even having ice-cream before a meal is bad for it will spoil my appetite! Therefore I went all "are you serious?" and he said yea since he has not been there for some time now. So i got very excited! Not because i can eat ice cream for lunch mind you but because i have never been to Swensen!!! hehe...

So we finally reached, got our seats and i got all pressured for there were so many choices of ice-creams to pick from and the waitress is waiting for us next to our table, all hovering about us like a vulture getting impatient and ready to peck us if we were indecisive! hehe ok drama a bit le. So finally i mad up my mind and pick this chocolate ice cream ( ok sue me i forgot the name) and tony picked some banana split ice cream! GOsh i was sugar high by the end of the day! It was so full of chocolate and top up with chocolate sweets and chocolate chips! Gosh heaven! it was great on a hot Saturday afternoon! hehe. Below here are the visuals that will get your mouth watering!!












Thats mine! Look at the chocs!!! That's Tony's Banana Split!

Hehe hungry yet?!! Teehee

Live band n open mike session @ La Bodega

I was lucky enough to be invited for this event for if not so i would not have realised it existed, being the naive person i am. My friend Izham was performing for the open mike show and my college lecturer Mr Azmyl was also performing therefore I went to support them. It was mainly Indie music( i think thats how u spell it) and there were like 11 open mike shows and 5 guest performances. These guest performances, most of them have their own album already and some are damn good!

The ambience of the bar was great too as you can see in the pictures. It was very cozy and comfy as we laid back to listen to the performances. I solute them for having the guts and the talent to write and play their own music. Lol wished i was that talented. Look at how easily i gave up my guitar...hm i must continue playing it. Nway waited for my friend's performance and i was shocked to see how well he can sing, and i love my lecturer's performance! damn funny!! great guy!! I'm so proud hehe...

I loved the great experience. Made me appreciate local music more for there is raw talent going on there. There is this music cd called voices of malaysia ( if im not mistaken) go get it!! support them. I also fell in love with this guy's music, his name is Kevin Teh and he is damn good. Buy his album! Great songs... He sound a little like Alex Band! Oh well there is a next event coming up somewhere in early September and it would be their last at La Bodega for some "stupid" fella is turning it into a Steamboat Restaurant! wth!!! Oh well i wanna go and i wanna go for future events too so people, tell me if you know any!!!

-Support your local Artists-

A Starlight Experience

Somewhere around last week, Leon was lucky enough to get us four invites to watch the free movie screening of Click at Starlight Cinema!! Well being a first timer I was all excited about it. Lol and what and experience I got. Being naïve and excited I dressed up together with my new heels and all only to find out that it rained heavily at KL area! We rushed there to collect our free invites, registered, ( gosh it was sooo muddy! =( ) then went out for dinner. Trust me after all the mamak sessions I had here you would be surprise where we dine that night. It was none other then the traditional Chinese meal of Bak Kut Teh! It was good finally eating pork…hehe..dun blame me man im a Chinese!!! You should scold me for not eating enough pork!

So after dinner ( which cost a bomb), we went back, took out our plastic bags!! As “alas” for our asses and marched in looking for a good spot on the ground which was already crowded with people on mats. Whoa was I surprise to see how prepared some people were. People actually brought huge mats with big huge comfy pillows, picnic baskets…chairs and they looked all ready and comfy for the movie, where as looking at us sitting cross-legged on plastic bags which was not big enough to be comfortable was something to laugh at and remember. Finally the movie started and we were to engrossed to notice anything till little small insects started to climb up our legs or tickle our toes. I swear there were grasshoppers too…eek!!! Then they started biting!!! We ended up scratching all over!! Lol.. Comical…

All in all it was actually a good experience, something different from the mundane atmosphere of sitting in an air condition room with seats… You guys should go and check it out! Oh btw, the movie Click is great!!! Worth watching!! Good family values!! And as always any show with Adam Sandler in it is worth watching!
I’m out!

Eating Bak Kut Teh with Charles, Leon n Sneha

Starlight Cinema the outside

Our passes!

Serious manda?

To all who knows me out there....Am I a gamer? lol....NO!!!! but lately thanks to my bf im drag to the cyber to play CS! I finally learnt how to play the game! BUt yes i am still slow at it! Then about few days back i went to the cyber at Asia Cafe and was hooked on this game called Serious SAm 2! wth!!! Was so hooked till we played for more then two hours on a college night and it was already 3 plus in the morning! Joy!!!

And and i am now currently at the cyber with a few other friends getting ready to play Serious SAm!! lol....so I'm off now!!!

Friends: Bitter or Sweet

Define a friend? Or what makes a friend a true friend? For me it’s simple, one who would be there for me no matter what, one who makes me laugh, one who understands me, one who shows he or she cares and not just for his or her own good but for mine. Someone I can trust and rely on who has my back on everything. Not so the ones who goes out with you every night to have fun, to enjoy and have a blast. There was once a quote but I forgot who was it from which goes “A True friend stabs you in the front and not the back”

Well till now, my whole 19 years of my life I can’t proudly stand up and announce that I have found a TRUE friend. Good friends yes, without a doubt. But TRUE friends I have not. People whom I thought were my friends ends up stabbing me in the back. Let’s start from the younger days, where you TALK about someone, (the reason why I use the word talk for, firstly it sounds better and secondly who does not talk about other people?! Name me one!) and it gets to that someone but the story changes and fight happens? Well the tatter tale is the back stabber.

You would think that, those were the days when we were all young and childish and its so behind us? Well think again! In high school, people use to talk behind each other backs. Best friends’ gossip about their other behind each other backs but puts on a sweet friendly face in front of them. Everything one does, from the way one dresses to whom she is talking to circulates around. Nothing goes unnoticed by these few people. It is as though they feed on gossips to survive. Everyone knows everyone’s dark secrets but the fact that theirs is also being circulated. Things will be discussed in whispers and conclusions will be made. It is so sad to think that this big group of friends I had which is so proud of our big group and promises to stay in touch and be friends forever can make such promises and yet is just dying to hear dirty scoop about each other. Is this part of the promise? Is it just a formality where we all know we won’t stick too? I felt so vulnerable for everything I do, could turn into some juicy gossip for others and thanks to these gossipers things could be misunderstood and fights could occur.

Moving on to college where I thought we all outgrew all this gossiping and childishness, I thought wrong again. I was ready to forgo all the disagreements I had with my high school mates for I thought it was all in the past. I forgave them and am ready to start fresh with them. But unfortunately some did not change and I do not think they will ever will. One incident which is still stuck in my head till today, is when my friends from overseas all came back and I went out with them and we all sat and chatted and chatted away updating each other on their own life it was so fun and I had a great time. Went back all happy we met up but then I found out that meeting up and chatting was secondary for some. Meaning, they were more interested in dirty scoop of my life rather then the fact that I am enjoying college life. I realized how persistent were they for they kept asking how’s my life and how’s Sneha’s ( sneha why for last time she was one of their main providers of their life support system…GOSSIP), do I have anyone new in my life and just about everything. Me being gullible told them almost everything that is happening to me in college. But mainly I was happy!! So to continue with the story I met up with one of my school mates in KL and went out with my boyfriend, Leon and her and one more high school mate. Had a great time, sat down and chatted and all so then we parted and I got an sms and I quote “ She seems happy with Leon, he seems like a nice guy” reading this from an outsider’s point of view you would think they as my friends are happy for me but I know them and it is more of a beginning of a gossip. Oh btw she sent the wrong message to me…ha ha… it was meant for my “best friend”. Another incident which got me so shock and made me agree that gossip spread faster then bacteria in the air is when I was out with my high school mates having dinner and I had to excuse myself to the ladies ( gosh Ms Aisyah would be proud to hear this) and passed my handbag to my bf to hold, “lucky” me my bag was open and the contents of my bag was obvious, my friends saw a cigg pack in my bag…. Whoa the news spread to another gal who was supposed to be in Melbourne for holiday to Sneha and then to me…haha sneha was good enough to tell me but trust me im sure it also went to my “best friend” and to others in Ipoh… joy!!! ( btw I am not agreeing that I smoke) believe what you want…My life is really an open book…

Let’s talk about college too; I made a few close friends. People I would call really close friends for they crack me up. They were my gang of friends in college. We were so close we did almost everything together, we see each other everyday and we shared our thoughts and secrets too. We were close, maybe too close… Problems started to arise.. One became too manipulative, one is weak, one is a back stabber and people start to question why are they giving more att to the other and not him or her, members of the gang seem to start fighting for the dominant’s person’s att, by doing things behind each others back, people start bitching about the others in the group, small little things seems to start a fight…What happen to the group?!! Is this what we call friends?!! Friends are not people who bitch about you, not manipulative people, not gossipers…

Who are my TRUE friends?!! Without a doubt I do have friends, close friends too but TRUE friends? Friends should give and take, forgive and forget and not hold grudges. It’s so simple, and little to ask for. Is it me really? Am I that vulnerable and easy to be manipulated and taken advantage of? For I believe not everyone are like this. I’m sure some have found their TRUE friend. So why can’t I? Why is it so hard? All my intentions are good and I hope and I pray I get good returns.

( To whom whose reading this, I’m sorry if you get offended by this post but it is just my thoughts and I am not pin pointing anyone. If you do then well you know you’re wrong, that is why you’re defensive and I can’t do anything about it)
~Truce~

~Friends Forever~ The Saga Of My Life

So as the title says; Friends forever! Sounds familiar? Well this word should be worn out from being uttered too many times. Since primary school, where all is young and innocent, we made promises to each other to stay friends forever! Nothing will break our friendship, and then it was high school where we met more people and still promised to remain friends forever. Then high school ended and people separate to either colleges or Form 6, hearts were heavy but life continues and still the promise stands where people come back over the weekends and gatherings were held. In the near future, people would get jobs, rushing to meet ends, finding that one person you love and want to spend the rest of your life with, and having children to continue the “family line”. So where does the promise stand? Can one hold to the promise for so long? Do we have time for old friends? To stay in touch or even more to maintain the friendship to begin with? Friends! What are friends? People who are there for you, who makes you laugh, lend a shoulder for you to cry on and be there to support you through thick or thin.

Well as for me, I do not have that much of luck in that area. It could be my personality that made me an object of misunderstanding. As I look back on my life, when it comes to friendship I have been going through a stormy sea or a rocky mountain. In primary school, I have already been misunderstood. There were many “I don’t friend you anymore” words uttered. I remembered going back home and crying to my mother about how I fought with my friends. Well that was primary school, whereas in high school…lol that was another horrible time. My primary school gang joined up with another school’s group therefore our big group consisted of almost 20 people. The group consists of so many diff façade of people. We are from diff classes but hang out during recess and weekends. In the whole, I am a shy person, I do not make good first impressions, and I do not make the first move. I got misunderstood! It got worse when I had an argument with my “best friend” and she went around the group bad mouthing me. It was hell for me for I was alienated. I was bad mouthed and those who were not so close to me avoided me and exclude me of group outings. It hurt so badly. But thank the lord I manage to pull myself through and now that I have graduated from high school and am studying in college I thought to myself hey a new environment!

It turns out that trouble took up a liking to me and is following me everywhere I go. College was great and fun in the beginning, everyone were friendly to everyone. People were curious and friendly but as the semester changes so do the people. Groups began to form and people move into them. Some familiar faces don’t seem so familiar anymore. Different people were alienated. Out- spoken, opinionated people were hated. And now it is so obvious in college, for there is this dominant group of people, who moves in groups and dominate or self vote themselves into ranks in clubs. I know some of them and some of them dislike me due to…MISUNDERSTANDINGS but the impressions have been made and won’t be changed. One influencing the other, now I am just this acquaintance to them and I’m not in the “gang”. All this is also due to misunderstandings. Joy! Well thinking I still have my Public Relations classmates, I thought wrong! We had to get into groups of three or four and me and Sneha found ourselves without a group. People kept giving excuses or reasons. I would not know if my paranoid self is acting up again or it is for real that they would not want to group with us I am not sure but it hurts to think so. What have I done? Seriously all my life what have I done to cause all this?!! I was facing depression for a few days, was feeling so down. Do not know where I belong…

Since primary school I have always consoled myself by thinking hey maybe high school would be different for I will be meeting more people, starting anew. Apparently I thought wrong, then again I tried by thinking college would be different, I’m totally meeting different people, I will straighten my life back and get it in order…I thought wrong too and now I find myself thinking degree would be different or so I hope… Is it me? Am I just cursed to have horrible friendships? Truth be told, I don’t think of myself as a horrible person. I mean no one is perfect but I would think that my personality is good natured, I am there for my friends when they need help, in summary a good person so why do I suffer all this? Is it because I have a weak and vulnerable personality where people would take advantage of and walk all over me? I really do not know….All I can do right now is go on with my life doing what I think is right and count on my true friends to be there, my family and God himself.

Scents : An Aphrodisiac

This is actually quite an unexpected event of the day. It started off normal with college, classes, the usual. I was actually feeling quite down and lonely that day till classes ended and I was joined up with Sneha and Leon. We went to pyramid for lunch and then for a movie, American Haunting. Well as we were having lunch, a salesperson approached us and managed to convince Sneha to buy a bottle of Gucci, envy me perfume at only RM50. Sounds like a good deal but we were unsure if it was the original one or not so after the movie we went to Parade to check out the original one.

It seems the same, so Sneha was happy but we ended up going around perfume shopping!! Hehe…. Pity Leon had to tag along and was sneezing his head off for he was allergic to some of the smells. We tested so many from Ralph Lauren, to Escada, to Hugo Boss, to CK lol all the brands and by the end of the day I was “scent” high!! We even tested out men’s perfume for gosh some smell great! For example Hugo Boss and CK Eternity! Gosh heaven!!! I sprayed some on Leon and hehe was sniffing him all day!!

Funny how a scent can relate you to someone. How once you smell a particular scent you remember a person. Reminds me of the movie I bought called Scent of a Woman by Al Pacino for my college assignment…lol…It’s something about how a blind retired lieutenant can tell a woman’s personality from the scent she was wearing. Whenever I smell a familiar scent, whether it is back at my home town or some place diff I would think of the same person wearing the scent. Scents remind you of people and so do songs that people relate it to another.

I was really “scent” high, was actually feeling all happy and cheerful the whole day. I have my eyes on the Ralph Lauren Cool perfume!! Its blue and red…gosh smells nice!! Now I know what to do when Im feeling down!!

~Catching up on the PAst~

Just yesterday I met up with my best friend Lavanya FINALLY!!! She went to India after her mid way through her form 6 to do med and i have not seen her since...Even the few times she came back i did not get the chance to see her!! It was all so bad timing and finnally i saw her yesterday!! Met up with her at Jusco together with Sanji who is studying in Aust another close friend of mine and Balveena who is also studying in Aust...Haha you can say that all the people who are on holidays met up for we have nothing better to do here in Ipoh lol....

Gosh i missed her...There was like non stop talking and catching up to do...sooo much catching up to do..with all of them... So many changes too... It's amazing how one year or two can change someone so much. Time just flew right by us and we had to go haih... But there will be more meetings soon...there is suppose to be one today if i can get my ass of this chair and move but gosh the weather is killing and i lost all mood to do anything!! haha

Oh dangit, two more weeks to college!!! I dun wanan go back!!! Dun wanna start studying its a horrible semester!!! Academic writing, malaysian studies, Pr writing, Pr II, Comm project management ( that's hell)lord help me!! haha and darn my neck hurts like hell!! oh well wanna go piggy out le...
tataz!!

~A summary of the last week~

Well as much as I complained about being in Ipoh and rotting my head off, my "mom" Nadeem and Radlin came to IPoh for a visit, well Nadeem came down to straighten his hair and Radlin just for a break...nway Sneha and I went back with them, the following day, it was on a Friday and my cousin invited me and my friends for a party, more like a private party for the launch of Camillia's new album...lol...I was excited! firstly a private party then well local celebs but it was not like i went starstruck...no biggie... It was at Liquid and by the time we got there most of the people were there already...we mingled and guess what there was free vodka!! oo and chocolates! haha so we found a table and sat and drank and drank... Then Camillia performed some of her songs and then the dance floor was finally open... It was great just finally getting to dance and loosen up my body.... Saw sooo many cute guys there but....too bad...for two reasons...=P

Went back about 3 plus and crashed...and guess what...thinking that since I'm on a holiday and we just had a long night yesterday plus drinking i could sleep but nooooo!! Had to wake up at around 12 for DANCE PRACTISE!!! argh!! was sooo tired, body aching and grumpy....ended up being forced to dance at rad's place... So basically the whole week was dance practising!! for hours!!! few songs at a time!!! haha...this is all for the qualifying round on the 30th of June to represent Taylor's for the intercollege dance comp on the 14th of July!!!

So on the 30th, we went to Main campus all dressed up and made up and waited for our turn... It turns out that after auditioning your not allowed to stay back and watch the other teams perform in fear that people may copy moves so gosh we went all the way there performed for less then 5 mins and got nothing to do... We performed, showed the judges ( hehe) then had to leave and wait for a call at night if we got it or not!! Eek!! So we all went to Asia Club for pool and cool drinks...then went back to change for clubbing...Foam party at liquid!! Well most of us din go in the end coz it was too expensive and erm...too many gay guys... and it was too late so we wont get our money's worth... So Nadeem, Rad and Nadeem's lawyer guy went in...

Next day, woke up, packed and went to PUdu to get back here....sniff was supposed to rush back to go Penang but i cant get an earlier tic so there im back in Ipoh again....

ooo btw i got a new roommate, Yuvi from indonesia...long story another entry to tell...

tataz!!

Just Another DAy

Ah what did i do today that is so special that i have to blog about? lol...NOTHING!! thats the thing... As usual i woke up, washed up, went down, walked the dog, cleaned up his mess, mop the whole of downstairs, made breakfast ( oo yea i did make breakfast), then watched tv till my mom came back... Then went to the ENT (ear,nose, throat) doc and got a second opinion on my lump...

Went in and found a friendly looking doc there...All smiley and stuff...made me comfortable...Then he started checking the lump...Ask me to go into another room and da da daaaan the same procedure!!! Sticking a long tube into my nose!! I was hoping i did not have to do that since i did it last time but Nooooo..I had too... SO i laid on the bed and he stuffed the tube right into my nose!! Yuck and ouch!!! and into my throat!! gag and yuck!! Then its done....haih...

Im fine...the lump may be due to infection...an operation is not necessary yet... I just have to monitor it if it gets bigger then the operation is needed so far I can just let it be...Yay!!

So then went to Jusco to shape my eyebrows lol and then to cut my hair...I hate that hairdresser! Firstly she never cuts the style i want to, Secondly she is so inconsistent!! Now my hair is too short and thin!!! Like i needed that...haih..i really need to change my hairdresser!! But the hair wash was relaxing!! I needed that...

Hm then in summary, posters ( ooo i did 5!! and im proud of it) btw its a favor that im doing for my friends for this competition on NIE...so campaign thingy and they needed posters...oh then dinner,dishes, pasar malam,friends, online and prob more friends and then bedtime...lol

Isn't this interesting...*grins sarcastically* wooohoo cant wait for tmrw...=)
*hugz and kisses*

Eek!! An operation?!!

Haih just about a year back, I found a lump slightly below my right ear and it has been growing since...Now it is the size of a small fishball and it is quite visible...Parents did take me to see a speacialist and she gave me some med but said it was nothing dangerous, and some people do have them due to sinus or some infection which cost bateria to disturb the lymph nodes and stuff le...

So anyhow the story sorta ended, but then recently my mom realised it got bigger and started to get more worried when she was at the salon and people were talking about it.. It seems this kinda cases are common but the people just go for the operation to remove it just to be on the save side so knowing her believing everything she hears insist that i go for an operation now...eek!!! I hate hospitals!! The thought of an operation is making me sick...But funny im not really worried about the operation or whether the lump is anything harmful or not ( for i did not go for a scan yet) what scares me more is staying alone in the hospital...haih... and then as everyone knows...the hospital bill.... I have insurans but haih u know the shit they put you through le...

I dun wanna i dun wanna!!! argh its ruinin my holidays!!!

Man of Action or Words?

I was browsing through a copy of Elle magazine when I came across an article written by Michelle Bong titled More Than Words. It caught my attention and I would like to add on with my opinions and viewpoints.

The writer started by defining how love is in the modern times for women, most women wants a man of action. One who would sweeps us off our feet by carrying our groceries, and surprising us with romantic dinners and impromptu weekends in Bali. But sometimes, the “all action no talk” style can be detrimental. There is nothing quite like a man who can dig deep, articulate his feelings and speak from the heart, as she says. An articulate man as she defined is one who can move his woman by telling her what she wants to hear and mean it too.

It’s sad to say that most men can’t bring themselves to speak of love, so it’s unfortunate to say that the era of love letters, and dates which consist of moonlit strolls in the park or a shared milkshake is beyond it. Which words would one prefer? “ Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, or a simple “ I luv you” on the sms? Well most would say it’s the delivery that counts. Well I am not taking sides.

In my opinion both are equally important, you can’t have one without the other. Too much of one would also upset the other. Therefore both in good dosage is what a woman needs. Let’s start with a man of action, yes your man would be there to take you out for romantic dinning and shower you with gifts but is a close shell. How is a relationship to work when there is no communication? When I said words I don’t mean words of Shakespeare or corny ones but meaningful words, words from the heart that one actually means. Besides the exchange of words, communication is, like I kept emphasizing is important! Talking about life, what’s going on in one’s life, the family and friends is a part of communication and it is baby steps to a good relationship. It strengthens things more then any gift one can afford to buy. For material things could never replace communication between two loving couples and make up for the lost time between two couples.

But this does not mean action is all bad. Who would not like a man who would take charge once in awhile, who would make the decisions and be there, a strong wall when all seems hopeless? How about a man of words? One which showers you with sweet words, quotes from “Shakespeare” that will bring you back in time where poetry is the way to a woman’s heart. But what if he does not mean it? What if its pure words, a horrible way of wooing the helpless and the desperate? How about a great guy who always plans to take you somewhere but never got to doing it? Promises you things and never fulfilling it? Should have, could have, and would have… things that people promise or would want to do but due to some reasons never get to doing so. To some extent it discourages people and hope looses its meaning. Empty promises would be the word to describe it.

So there you have it the pros and cons of a man of action and a man of words. Like I said before I personally prefer a little bit of both, a man who can communicate with me and tells me what is in his heart, what is he thinking about, be romantic and charming when it is necessary and also a man who would stand up and make decisions, be a man and does what he promises to do.
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To Be or Not To Be; That is the question!

Well as you can see in my title and in the words of Hamlet, to be or not to be? To me this is really ambiguous for it really depends on the situation. But right now the only thing that’s for sure in my life is… gosh I have no idea. For many people it would be an easy question to be answered.” I would finish my medical studies and graduate as a doctor/surgeon and live a perfect live with a perfect husband”

As for me, I am currently doing Mass Communication and majoring in Public Relations and am already in my fifth semester and suddenly I find myself getting hit with something…reality… Is this really what I want to be doing? As in Mass Communication? I don’t see myself as a journalist as much as I love the fact that my articles and my thoughts would be published and be read by people.. and I dun really see myself in advertising either… I am not creative! Now how abt public relations? Gosh I have to deal with people… I am actually a naturally shy person when it comes to the first impressions.. I dun usually do well.. In Public Relations one have to be strong-witted, hard headed, confident, up and about and I am still lacking of the above… still the same ole lazing me…

Why the sudden thoughts you may think? Well I have been compared to people continuously in my whole lifetime by my mom… Somehow its never enough for her, my results, my achievements are just acknowledged by a nod and sometimes rewards but my failures will be bombarded with lectures and comparisons to my better off friends and relatives… One day after talking to my friend about how she is leaving soon made me realized that all around me my friends have what you may call high ambitions and high aims in life! In my group of high schoolmates I have 5 studying to be doctors, about 4 going for engineering, one a dentist, one a lawyer this is to sum up how high flying careers they are aiming for and some are already on the track… And then my mom had to make a comment about how when there is a high school reunion and everyone is back to “show off” their achievements and if I am not doing well, would I have the face to show up during the reunion when everyone is doing so well on their own?

The thing is I don’t see myself as a doctor nor a lawyer nor an engineer. I am not too sure what I want but Mass Comm seems the best choice rite now. The closest to what might be my interest but my mom doesn’t seem to see it and till now I can see that she still disapproves it and hope that I do something better… She is dampening my spirits plus after talking to a cousin of mine who is also doing Mass Comm, she majored in Public Relations then opt to Journalism and now she is doing her industrial training for VIDA and a few of her articles are being published in the mag, she have seen celebs, been to launches, basically been there done that and I wonder to myself would I be doing that? Can I do that?? Am I capable of it? Well not the writing part but being out there and doing what a Mass Commer should do.. But if it is not Mass Comm then what else?!

I feel so lost right now.. I am one who wants it big, a high flying career, independent, and enjoying the fruits of my labor but looking at my slacking self rite now I am doubting it. My mom keeps on saying how I don’t aim higher then what I have right now I seem to be happy with my I have but I am actually not. Only at moments like this do I have a sudden burst of inspiration to do way better to aim for the stars and pull myself together but after I switch off this com it goes back to slacking and when college reopens, studying last minute… going out too often, last minute work…gosh!!
I am really lost and I really don’t know what to do with my life!!

As my title says and so does Hamlet ‘to be a Mass Commer or not to be; that is the question!’

My future is but a thick fog; uncertain..a wrong move and it would be detrimental, a right one and I’ll be satisfied…

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