Self esteem -Narcissism or humility

Well what is self esteem we would ask? how is it properly defined? WEll according to wikipedia, self esteem or self-worth includes a person's subjective appraisal of himself or herself as positive or negative to some degree.Or as social psychology would define it, as how we, the people preview ourselves and carry ourselves about. Is it important one might ask? In my opinion, it does matter for it plays an important role in our life. Someone with a very high self esteem of himself or herself can be confident and proud and be viewed as a narcissis by other people or in other words a bitch? BUt at least he or she knows what he wants in life and is sure of getting it. But when it comes to someone with very low self esteem of himself or herself, one would be insecure, paranoid and this gives other people the opportunity to walk all over you and push you around and take advantage of you.
Therefore self esteem must be well balanced out both with a little narcissism and humility, to create a well balance person. Hm... unfortunately i cant apply it to me...My self esteem of myself is below average...And it somehow decreases whenever i am around people who are so confident of themselves... holding their head up high and knowing they look good and r sure of getting things they set their mind on. I really do admire these kinda people and really hope i can be like them one day... I always think i am a simple jane and somehow feel that i loose out to the more confident people. I feel so small next to them. I don't know how to act whenever i am around them and it sucks more because i am around them almost everyday.... Is it as easy as pulling myself up and changing my perception and being more confident? hm mayb.... and i am trying...but can't blame me with recent issues my self esteem drop even lower... I was used and made a fool ! and i fell for it. I was so depressed and din have anyone to turn too..And thanks to him i feel so low and insecure right now...haih...but im getting over it..as usual pulling myself through again..=)
This whole self esteem thingy is an issue now for me... Trying to bring it back up..Im worth it...Im nice, easy going, talkative, i care for people..somethings too much, humble...hm..Im worth it!!! =) lol..sounds like some self inspiring blog...lol..heck we need it once in a while to make us feel better because some people are just out there to make u feel bad about yourself and bring down your self esteem...Oh well enough of this..Im stuck here blogging while sneha, rad and nadeem are cuddling outside in blankets watching a horror film and i wanna join already!!! im freezing here too!
tataz!!












The picture one the left is narcissis gazing at his reflection in the river admiring his looks and the picture on the right his Jesus being so humble he is washing the feet of a normal villager despite his status... narcissism versus humility